 -When you been gone then Its been a Summer-
|
|
|
 |
|
Jul 6, 2004
I'm falling into memories you,things we use to do.
Well a little bits happening.Taft dumped me...which is better because we both know were bad for eachother and it definatly was not working out.And Im kinda happy he did it so I didnt have too.I guess its just really over.It looks like Amanda still might be going to North Carolina with me.If not Im probably going with my mom to Ocean City for that week.So either way I get a vacation.Im on a diet which isnt probably going to last much longer.This carbohydrate shit sucks.We ate out today and I was just like staring @ the bread they brought to the table.I have NEVER wanted bread so bad in my whole life.Hell I dont even like bread that much.Oh well....if it will make me skinny.OH YEAH and Im going blonde...soon probably.I guess when I get dumped I just feel like I need to do something I guess just to make myself better or something?I have no idea.But I also took up reading.I went to borders and bought 'The Notebook' and the sequel 'The Wedding' Last night.The book so far is so much better than the movie.Its crazy how losing someone makes you...I took up reading,a diet,drastically(sp?) changing my hair, and....well thats about it.Maybe im just going crazy.I dont know.But I guess thats about it!
P.s.This is my last entry...Im sick of this journal.maybe Ill get a new one I dont know..."helovesmenot"...true but gay.
<3,christy You're watching, my heart being, so close to you,
your bleeding thoughts.
Open wounds still breathing
You're my everything, you're my everything...
Left behind hateful thoughts, overwhelmed by your mind,
lost in time again.
Shadows bringing me down, jealous of your face,
drowning in your awe.
Although I can see, time is not running out,
I still run behind everything.
I don't understand, I embrace every thought,
everyword...everything.
Posted at 05:31 pm by HeLovesMeNot
Permalink
Jul 4, 2004
01. Ready?: I guess?
02. First and middle name: Christy Leigh
03. Male/Female: Female.
04. Eye color: Hazel.
05. Height: 5'2 Im teeny
07. Hair color: Dark brown
08. Siblings:Chelsea,Ben,and Tom
10. Age: 15.
11. Birthdate: December 6th
12. Zodiac: Sagitarius(cant even spell it)
13. Current residence: North Beach?
14. Where do you want to live: not here
15. E-mail: Kissesntherain36@AOL.com
16. Right handed or left handed: Right.
17. Least favorite sport:all of em.
18. Single or taken:same person
19. If single, like anyone: Im taken
20. Are you lonely: Sometimes
21. Are you happy: Sometimes
22. What is right next to you:a window
23. What are your underwear like right now:Pink ones
24. What are the last 4 digits in your phone number: 5588
25. What was the last thing you ate:Nachos...mmm.
26. Where do you want to go on your honeymoon: Jamacia
27. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with:The guy from the Notebook...no,no..ORLANDO BLOOM!.
28. How many buddies do you have on your list:144
29. How is the weather right now: Icky,its raining
30. What did you do last night: saw fireworks
31. How do you eat an Oreo:I ONLY eat the middle
32. What is your dream car:Hott pink VW beetle
33. Are you too shy to ask someone out:Nope
34. If you could change your name what would it be:Maybe JlO?
35. What is the stupidest thing you have ever done:Um,..trusting people?
36. What will your first sons name be:I want a girl.
37. What about your first daughter: Paris or Emily
38. Do you consider cheerleading a sport:Nope
39. Do you have any piercings: Yes.
40. What might you get pierced: bellybutton
41. Do you do drugs: Nope Im clean
42. What are you most scared of:Mexicans,Aliens,Electrical Sockets,Drowning,Cotton Balls and about 1000000 other things
43. How many TVs in the house:4
44. What are you listening to right now:Sugarcult-How does it Feel
45. Who is the last person that called you:Tafty
46. Who is the last person that you called:Amanda
47. Where do you want to get married: Vegas baby!
48. If you could change anything about yourself:Um,....everythang
49. Your biggest pet peeves:peeve?wtf?
50. If you could be someone else for a day who would it be:someone really skinny.
51. Who is your idol:hmmm I dunno
52. What was the last movie you saw in theaters:The Notebook
53. Who would you hate to be locked in a room with:This guy that was in my health class he had lie tourette
54. Who would you like to be locked in a room with:hmm maybe my boyfriend?
55. Parent's names: Susan and George
56. Pets: Kitty,Cocoa,Tweek,Pepper, and Josie
57. How much do you want a job:I dont really want one?
58. Hometown:North Beach,MD
59. When was your last hospital visit:when I visited m mom @ work
60. What color is your bedroom carpet:tannish,very ugly
61. Have you ever been convicted of a crime: haha I hope not.
62. Bedtime: usually around 12
63. What do you first notice about the opp. sex:Botttay.
64. What makes you happy:Friends,being away from my parents,SHOPPING!!
65. What do you want to be when you grow up:A BACARDI GIRL
66. Do you think tongue piercings are hot:I think thats kinda of hott,it depends on the person its on.
67. Do you like to dance: occasionally
68. Do you like to sing:nope me singing breaks things.
69. Do you like to act: Nope
70. What are some of your future goals:surviving to 20
++ HAVE YOU EVER
01. Been so drunk you blacked out: hehe no
02. Missed school because it was raining: Yeah
03. Put a body part on fire for amusement:Nope Im scared o fire too
04. Kept a secret from everyone:Not really I have a BIG mouth.
05. Had an imaginary friend:Nope
06. Wanted to hook up with a friend:Nope
07. Cried during a flick:OH YES
08. Thought an animated character was hot:No thats kinda sick
09. Had a New Kids on the Block tape:WHO??
10. Prank called someone: Yupp
11. Been on stage: Yes.
12. Cried: Definatly
13. Cut your hair: Yes.
14. Been mean: Yes.
15. Been sarcastic:YUPP
16. Met someone new:yupp
18. Missed someone:yupp
19. Hugged someone: yupp
20. Fought with your parents: yupp
22. Wished upon a star:yupp,I figure its worth a shot.
23. Laughed until you cried:OH YES
24. Watched a sunrise/sunset: yupp
25. Went to the beach at night:yupp
26. Read a book for fun:Nope dont read
27. Had sex:Nope
28. Smoked pot: Nope
29. Been in love?:I think so
30. Given s
Posted at 03:10 pm by HeLovesMeNot
Jul 3, 2004
Today was alright and everything I got like 2 new outfits and I was in a pretty good mood.But then Amandas mom called and was like "Amandas grounded shes not allowed to do anything tonight blah,blah,blah".I was like oooook...so my moms mad at me because I have to come see her earlier,my dads mad at me because he can have his little girlfriend sleepover,and Im pissed because everyones mad @ me.But it turned out ok because me and Nora had a lot of fun at the fireworks and everything.It sucks though I wanted to be with Taft.It just seemed like the ideal situation being with your boyfriend and watching fireworks on the fourth,well 3rd of July.But of course he was with Amber.Go figure...I mean WHY would you want to be with your girlfriend watching fireworks when you can be with your X and know your gonna get yelled at for it!?!!Then I come home and Nicks away message is "At the boardwalk watching fireworks with Amanda".Ok its bad enough Amanda when your ditching me to go on a trip with Nick when shes promised me for ONE FUCKING YEAR shed go.Whatever Amanda.Your such a wonderful friend I ask you ONE favor but STILL Nick is just so much more important then me.Just remember boyfriends dont last forever but friends do.
-errrrrrrrrrrrrr
Posted at 10:42 pm by HeLovesMeNot
Permalink
<3I want you to know I miss you,I miss you
Well today hasnt been soo bad.Didnt do much though but I did get to see my boyfriend for a little while.That was interesting.But yeah hopefully Ill be able to go shopping before the fireworks tonight...but its doubtful.Im spending the night @ mandas which should be fun.Im being kicked out becuase my daddy wants to spend "quality time with his girlfriend".Bullshit he wants to get laid.Thats a nasty thought.But yeah thats about it for today.
There's something in the air tonight
Something that makes me feel alive
And I said whoooa
What were the words that you said to me
That made me feel so special now
Once again your eyes Make it hard to ask you why
So I sit here knuckles tight Hands against the wheel
Your head against the glass
And you mean so much to me
To me
To me
<3 -Christy
Posted at 02:54 pm by HeLovesMeNot
Permalink
Jul 2, 2004
Im talented a breathing,expecially exhaling..
Today has been kinda shitty.Me and Taft are NOT getting along.But what the fucks new.Today I got some new selftanner stuff.I think ive tried like everyone on the market and havent found one Ive really liked.Well the only one Ive actually thought was ok is some "IGIA" on...its a spray on one.And it didnt leave me too streaky wich was good.But yeah.Tonight Im going to a "Tiki party" yay cant wait!!!Not really.But yeah...I guess thats about it.
-Christy
Posted at 04:48 pm by HeLovesMeNot
Permalink
Jul 1, 2004
Posted at 09:15 pm by HeLovesMeNot
Permalink
-I think about your face and how I fall into your eyes-
Well today I didnt do much up until like 1.Me an Amanda went to the mall and the movies.We saw the 'notebook'.Wow that was such a great movie.By the end all my eye makeup was running down my face and my eyes were like bloodshot red.It was soooo sad!I dont think Ive ever seen a movie thats made me cry that much.That guy was sooo sweet....he built her a house even after he hadnt seen her in years just because she made him promise her he would!It was sooo cute he would do anything for her.Even though not to mention any names ...uhhhmmm...hmmmm....AMANDA! like almost ruined the movie for everyone with all her comments and obnoxious laughter.LoL Im guessing that girl thought that guy was very good in bed.I guess it was really funny.But yeah...I wish I could have love like that.Me and Taft kinda use to be like that way back when.But thats gone away and I realized are relationship pretty much blows.But I still love him and Im HOPEING he still feels the same about me.This weekend Im pretty much gonna be with manda becuase I would do anything to be aay from my mother.But yeah I need some dinner.I <3 you Taft even if are relationship isnt perfect & Im sorry Im so damn difficult.
-Christy <---aww :(
Posted at 08:43 pm by HeLovesMeNot
Permalink
Jun 30, 2004
Everythings gonna be alright,be strong believe--<3
Well I didnt end up seeing the 'Notebook' dont really wanna get into that becuase it seriously pissed me off.But yeah my father made me see 'Spiderman'.I really dont get what all the hypes about.I only get into movies where I can relate to the characters.But it was just soo unrealistic,..a guy with like 6 arms ,another one who can fly from building to building with string stuff,and a girl who is supposidly in love with a guy for years and doesnt even try very hard to get him it didnt even seem like she really cared.I dont get.But whatever everyone else seems to like it.But then again I saw the first one and was like "wtf this shits gay".But yeah tomomrow my dad and my younger siblings are going crabbing.Nasty.I hate crabbing and everything about crabs they dont even taste good.Ambers over Tafts:/.Not even gonna get into my feelings on that subject.But actually I trust him now its just the fact we barely spend time together and hes with her all the time.But yeah I guess thats about it.
<3,Christy
Posted at 06:14 pm by HeLovesMeNot
Permalink
Jun 29, 2004
Here I am alive at last & I'll savor everymoment of this.
Well the lake wasnt soo bad.Amanda didnt end up coming...apparently sun poisening is a bitch...a BIG bitch.LoL well I guess I most defiantly wouldnt want that shit.But yeah the lake was ok...I got a little bit of a tan.But one look at that water and I knew someone couldnt pay me to go in it.I only swim in pools.But yeah...2morrow should be fun me and Amanda are gonna see the 'notebook' which I been dying to see.It looks soo good and that one guy....omfg...soooo hotttt!I love sappy movies the only problem s if your alone...well dont have a boyfriend/girlfriend theymake you feel like shit..I was SUPPOSE to see it with Taft...but right now even his name pisses me offf.God...I swear nothing we do is special to him and half of what we do I do for him...Whatever.Next year hopefully Ill find someone new...hell find someone new...and will BOTH happy and away from eachother.I love him I really do...or atleast I did...but no matter what he tells me I know he doesnt love me or barely even care.Maybe he does just want some.I hate even saying that....it hurts me sooo much because its ok when any of my other boyfriends just wanted to get some (although none of them got any or got even close to getting any) but I actually care/cared about Taft.At one point I would of actually of done ANYTHING for him I was sooooo in love wth him.I guess he just took me for granted a little too much.But I guess whatevers meant to happen is gonna happen.So yeah Im out.<3<3<3<3<3
-Christy
Posted at 06:56 pm by HeLovesMeNot
Permalink
Guys like you are a dime a dozen
Well yesterday wasnt sooo bad.I woke up late and cleaned.After that I went to the dentist and safeway! When I got home I went and hung out with Taft.Afterwards he goes staright to his X's and I havent heard from him since.What a Jackass.People never change.Or least Taft will never change....hes just incapable of it.Hes incapable of treating as anything more than shit.Today my dads dragging us to a lake so we can spend some time with his girlfriend :x.Hopefully Amanda will still be able to come it wont be fun without her.But because of our last outing she gots sun poisening.Im sorry Amanda I thought my sPf stuff wouldnt do that :/.HAHAHAHA that song was soooo funny!Well im off...
-Christy
Posted at 08:50 am by HeLovesMeNot
Permalink
|
|
|
